Am not really ill, just very very sleepy and struggling to concentrate and string to words together.
Tiny puppy and Billy stupid cat share my sleepy bored world.

I loved it when I designed it and I loved it at this stage and then I crocheted 120 centres which only needed one last round which would join it altogether.
I estimate I have joined about 60 and now I hate it, it was going to be a stole, but its all wrong, from a distance the overall colour is grey and although I like grey it doesn't glow. I tried a million different colour combinations, but all where wrong and really didn't help.
I am really struggling to leave it alone and admit defeat. I have a self imposed never go back rule, because I have found going back just makes things worse and spending all those wasted hours is so frustrating.
But this has about 150 gms of Angel 2 ply in it and I hate to waste that much yarn, I could frog it, but would be left with 480 tiny scraps of yarn, this would frustrate me even more.
So I have decided to pack it away and not look at it again, it will be a struggle as its such a waste, but I must force myself rather than waste another million hours that should be spent working on something I like.